When i started playing Cabalsea, i get to know a guy dat even tho is young but is mature, fun loving and nice. We had some fun playing 2gether. But somehow we drifted apart... it was sad but any1 dat know me well know dat when im not emo, i can b flirty n crazy LOL so after so many months i din saw him online. 2day i saw him online... his title included his blog link so i went to his blog n left him a warm msg "missss u" but tis is normal for me n my close frens. But... i regret being so warm n tot dat he still consider me as good frens (T_T) he dislikes it... Now i felt so embrassed (T_T) Sobs looks like i lost a fren... Sad day
Saturday, August 30, 2008
New Template - Astro
2day, my blog's graphics all gone coz the person dat converted the template, his photbucket bandwith overload. So while trying to find out wats the prob, i came across tis new template n to me it's simply gorgeous (^_^) so i decided to change my template into tis 1... but 1 thing, whrs all the link to my dashboard Sobss...
Anyway i love tis template even tho sometimes the sun like pic will make my eyes blink blink LOls
Merdeka! It's independence day in MY. MY is now 51 years old... But i din feel the excitement of celebrations since im jz a frog dat onli sits at home LOL
2day dunno how, when n whr i cut my finger. Still painful now especially when it's wet or touched something dat's salty (>.<)
Feel so tired yet unable to sleep. Maybe i drank too much tea (>.<) I felt as if there is gallons of water in my stomach...
Sometimes i felt like a bird dat is trapped inside a cage. But the problem is, the cage is made of Uncertainties, Afraid of the Unknown, Financial Prob, Lack of Courage n Afraid to Venture out... Sometimes i feel like spreading my wings n jz fly away regardless of everything, any1. Throw all cautions to the wind. Jz fly far n high to find somewhr dat i belong. Maybe i dun belong anywhr... Like all Sagi, maybe i jz belong to Freedom.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Hungry Ghost Month
The ghost month is coming to an end soon. As usual, nearing the end of Hungry Ghost Month it'll b raining season. My mum used to told me dat it's raining coz the Hungry, Familyless Ghost is crying coz no1 pray n serve them wif food n no1 burn things n hell notes for them. They r oso crying coz they are sad to leave the human world.
These may sound like a far fetch, but it sure is interesting. Till now, sometimes i still believe.
Hungry Ghost Month is a very fascinating n interesting topic. We even choose tis as our History Project Subject when i was in secondary skool. We had fun gathering informations n skipping skool XD
Hmmm... lets get back to my haunted home stories LOL
After moving out of dat hse we moved to a rented room for temp. We rented a room in a big 2 storey hse dat is situated inside a village. There was a locked room on the ground floor wif a red light dat is always on. It was rumoured dat a groom hanged himself to death on his wedding nite... Even tho tis hse is bright unlike the previous hse dat is bside a temple, it felt more eerie (>.<)
After a month we finally moved to the hse dat we stayed for the longest until my step bro bought an apartment. This is hse, hmmm.... is very complicated to describe. It was situated on the next lane of the hse bside the temple. We were separated by the haunted river.
The owner is an old lady frm China. She was a strong woman, climbing roof n farming. But sometimes she's like a kid, always quarreling n patching up wif my mum XD There was total of 6 medium size rooms dat can fit 3 persons each n 1 hse wif 2 bedrooms which is the 1 we staying in. All the hse/rooms was built around the main hse. N the disgusting thing is... all the accupants share 1 TOILET... n u hv to bring a pail of water to this toilet urself! wif no light or electricity (eeeeee hope no1 is reading tis during meals or jz finished eating LOL) But however geli tis TOILET is... i spent years is tis hse n countless mins in tis TOILET... During nite time it's scary... having to bring a candle to toilet (=.=") n... urm... a book along XD Swt... i feel like vomitting n as if i smelt something bad now (T_T) My over active imagination... Sobs
In this large hse, lived 3 indian families, 2 chinese families(including ours), 5 Bangla guys... Everytime i wan to go home, i have to walk pass those Bangla's quarters... Swt... more scary den ghosts... They r known for being Hamsap (>.<) Luckily i managed to pass those days unscatched.
Whoa.... i tink wrote long enuf ler (>.<) Bz Bz...
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Happy Birthday QV
Edited 27/8/2008 @ 9.19am Y edit? Coz ystd i did tis in a rush... y rush? coz i dun wan to admit dat i 4got his bday! LOL (Jk JK) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
2day, 26/8/2008 is a good fren's birthday. Tis entry is dedicated to him. Happy Birthday QV @ Ishu!
Wats a birthday w/o a birhtday song huh... Ok, here goes... Ahem
Happy bday to u~ U were born in zoo~ wif monkeys n donkeys~ Happy bday to uuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~~~~~~~~~ XD
ok, ok serious 1
Wishing u a very happy Bday n may all ur wishes comes true (^_^) We all miss u n Luv ya~!!! LOL
I'd known him for about 2 yrs but we never talk much n wasnt close till not long ago when i was in the most moodiest n emo mood. He teached me something bout broken hearts n relationships, been there for me n making me smile thru my pains. So to make things a bit more special im dedicating these urm... quotes/poem/words for him.
U were like a bright star dat shine in my dark night, Still shinning in my heart when it's daylight. When my life was like a ferris wheel, u were up there wif me, n down there waiting for me when the wheel stop. Tys for being here at the right time n right place. Tys for listening to my bla bla bla all the time. Tys for making me smile when all i wanna do is hide. Last but not least, tys for simply being U. Happy Bday my dearest fren (^_^)
My frens, dun envy him. I believe every1 deserved something nice n special once a year. When ur turn comes i'll make something special for u all too. Like... copy n paste! LOL Okok serious, "Pls leave me ur DOB b4 closing this blog window, tys n have a nice day" Kakakakaka
Something out of memories (^_^)
Edit - 26/8/2008 @ 2.12pm (jz realised so many typo n grammar error >.<)
Last nite i watched a documentary about snakes... slithering, sneaky, disgusting snakes (ewwwww)
When i was a kid, we(me, mum n step bro) lived once in a little hse dat was build bside a temple (hmmm...the hse is those kampung like types, kinda like "setinggan"). The temple was on the right side of the hse and we were surrounded by "nona" fruit trees n a small river(rumoured to b haunted) bhind the hse. So our hse was built in a quite wild surrounding.
I remembered there was few incidents of centipedes getting into our home. N those centipedes is not worms size LOL... it's HUGE, FAT n SCARY (>.<") Once it even chased my mum... she was supposed to b chasing the centipede to killed it but she got chased in return LOL dat was the scariest centipede i ever seen.
My step bro even encountered a snake in this hse once, well luckily he managed to kill the snake (n brag bout it to us afterwards XD)
Alot of things happened in tis hse... well my memories in this hse is sad n sweet too coz i was an innocent kid dat dun hv to worry bout anything. But i was kinda emo at dat time coz im left all alone everyday while my mum earn our daily food by playing mahjong. I'll b coming home to an empty, eerie hse after skool each day. But, well.... thinking back... i rather go home to empty, eerie hse den b stuck w/o a family now (>.<)
In this hse, my mum saw a ghost once, she had the habit of goin to toilet in the middle of the night. N once while goin to toilet she glimpse out of the window n saw something white wif blood all over it standing on the right side of the hse (the temple side). But when she get a torchlight to look better, the ghost was gone. The next day, my mum won a 4D but fall n injured herself at dat nite...
Once, my step bro smelt something very sweet while playing guitar on the porch of the temple... the sweet scent move nearer n nearner to him. In the end he run back to the hse n wake my mum LOL
The last incident dat i know of is, my step bro n mum heard a ghost crying...
Urm... im writing tis in the middle of 7th mth in the middle of the night LOL i can feel im scaring myself... Stop tinking! Stop scaring myself! Well... better get back to the safety of my room under my blanket!
Monday, August 25, 2008
Time of absent place gaps in frenship?
I realised dat im truly an extra sensitive n emotionally being.
After being unable to online for so many days i felt dat i'd drifted far apart frm my frens... Maybe im over sensitive but i feel neglected by a good fren dat i always looked forward to talk to everyday (>.<) n dat makes me suddenly sad n moody... Or maybe my sensitiveness is jz true.... time of absent place gaps in frenship... Sad...
夢醒時分
Ohohohoho~ I was sleeping tis afternoon when my hsemate suddenly woke me... i tot something happen since she looked so excited SWT... she woke me to tell me dat suddenly can connect internet le LOLX but as usual... i dun get to use the comp till middle of the night when every1 is sleeping (=.=")
I oso wan to sleep le since im having a bit flu n feeling very cold... I feel im bcoming a big fat pig Lols... I slept for few hrs tis afternoon, n now sleepy again... N when i cant use the comp or internet i cant stop myself frm finding tid bits to eat (>.<) Arghhhhh Im fat enuf!!! Must control Must control (>.<) Whenever i go out i'll b buying tid bits... after dat i'll b feeling guilty (T_T)Few days ago when i felt guilty, i remembered my mum said "chiak pa si cho pa kui, bor chiak pa si cho yeow lor kui" (if died full will bcome a full ghost, but if die hungry will bcome hungry ghost! LOL) When she was alive, she'll b calling me "ah fat... fat liao still eat eat eat" den when i stop eating, she'll b worried am i sick LOL... mum sweet mum (>.<) Miss u so much (T_T)
I used to like tis song when it was sung by Dicky n the Cowboys but after paying attention to the lyrics, im becoming interested wif the original version (^_^) It's so meaningful... exactly like wat i had in mind. Dedicated to RiRi n Myself XD
Hmm... it felt dat some frens dat read my blog will b emo afterwards (>.<) but i already try to make my blog lighthearted, funny n interesting.... how come they still can emo? SWT...
ORiRi~~~ Miss u so much... so many days din talk wif u.... Ri RI~ Every1~~ Miss u all too.. Kakakaka Mostly missed is INTERNET!!! LOL
Sunday, August 24, 2008
MIA
Im goin crazy now... after spending the rest of my money to fix the comp, the phone ports got problem... now cant connect internet. Have to wait for the Telekom technicians to come n repair it... n as every1 knows... these guys work at their own sweet times de (T_T)
If i knew the phone ports gonna have problem i wont spend every cent to repair the stupid comp (Grrrrr) I would had use the money to eat or buy DVD better!
Now... haiz dunno how im gonna survive till end of the month le, no internet... no food, no DVDs.... Arggghhhh
F>tai yee long wif no interest!!! LOLs
Looks like my next update will b end of the month le Take care my fren... im goin to b MIA for sometimes... Office oso like cemetry now coz manager always in to take over my senior's work (T_T)
Dun forget me~ Lols it's a good time to c who will miss me huh Kakakaka
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Bad Luck... Again (T_T)
Bad things realli happens in a row, I'd experienced tis again n again. This time,the 1st bad luck thing dat hit me was - my home's electric bills din come for few mths den suddenly our electricity was cut off (well... we were wrong for not goin to TNB to get the bills too (>.<)) Den, my hsemate comp crashed... realli pokai now SOBs any1 know is there any temp job for 1 week dat i can get an advance b4 work? Lols.... Have to eat Maggi for the rest of the month le (T_T) even Maggi is expensive now Sobsssss Work is kinda bz lately as 1 of my senior is undergoin a training... but i'll still try to online sometimes Hehehehe~~~
Cloud is suffering frm chicken pox, poor guy... hope u recover soon ^^
Thursday, August 21, 2008
New Template ^_^
It's been sometimes since i last enter any entries... It's not dat i run out of ideas of things to blog, but i was bz wif work n games lately XD
After hard work of searching for new skin/templates, finally i found 1 dat looks a bit like wat i hv in mind. As usual i'll go for Dark Theme n hopefully wif some nature. The forest look realli nice, as if saying dat... no matter how dark n wild ur life is, the sun will always shine thru (Lols... the philosopher me talking Kakakaka) The 1 dat i realli likes is in WordPress (>.<) If there is any kind soul dat can convert wordpress template into blogspot template, pls... let me know n help me convert 1. Tys
Once i change the template i hv to put back all the widgets n rearrange them again... Any1 dat seen my old template b4, pls let me know which is easier to read n which style shud i put. This 1 looks sleek n more professional but maybe coz it's still new, i feel it's a bit confusing... Still trying to find my ways around n make it nice n simple
Saturday, August 16, 2008
WZBQW
I wanted to find a song dat was sung in Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa bout mothers de but i came across tis 1 instead.
It's a very very nice song but sound a bit sad oso (>.<)
WZBQW is my all time fav taiwan drama. I'd watched tis drama countless times n it never fails to makes me touched everytime.
Friday, August 15, 2008
A tribute to my mum Part 1
Im pretty bz 2day to write bout anything, now it's time to go off. But i want to post something here b4 goin off.
Now is the Ghost month of chinese calendar. How i wish my mum can appear to me... but i guess she dunno how to come to my place LOL. She'll get lost if she go out of Png!
So i decided to write a tribute to her. I'd already wrote the 1st part in my Frenster blog n some of my loyal fans (ahem!) frens* (Lols) had read it. So im gonna copy n post here n maybe continue wif the second part ASAP
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My mother lead a hard n sad life.
My mother was born second into a family consisted of 7 siblings. Bcoz of too many brothers n sister, my mother was always overlooked by my grandmother n rarely received any love frm her. But my grandfather loves my mother most... too bad, my grandfather died while my mother was still a little girl.
My mother came frm a very poor family and it was jz after WW2. Life was hard. My mum was uneducted (but she knows some english tys to my stepsis's little daughters-they speak english at home).
My mum start working as a young girl, she have to go out n sell balloons. If she dun reach the target she'll b goin to bed w/o dinner. While working she'll be peeping into schools... yearning to b 1 of the students in there (T_T)
When my mother reached her youth, she was forced into a marriage by her second elder bro bcoz he owed the man some money. The marriage would had been a happy n long lasting marriage as her husband's family loves her. But too bad, her husband was a womaniser (T_T) after giving birth to 2 kids, 1 boy n 1 girl. My mother divorced n she had to leave her son with her ex-husband.
So, as a young woman, wif a daughter to bring up n uneducated. My mother started working as a dancer/singer. My mother was a beautiful lady (if onli im a bit like her (>_<)) not long after, according to my mother, she was bewitched by a malay man. And when i say bewitched i meant those about black magic. She wasted a few yrs with the man n gotten herself 2 more kids... 2 boys. But when finally the spell broke, my mother ran away wif her 2 boys n of course wif my step sis too.
After running away she had to go back to her old job - dancing/singing. Life was hard at the time... luckily she had my step sis to help her take care of my 2 step bros while she works.
I remembered my stepsis telling me the hard time. They had to drink rice water as milk. Cook a whole pot of rice wif onli fried fishes to go along (T_T)
But somehow... my mother get luckier n she managed to pick up some gambling tricks (or maybe jz her luck getting better). She won some money on the horse races n bought a house n a car. Dats when life gets better but by dat time my step bros n sis were already in their teenage yrs...(imagine how they went thru childhood)
This is when she met my father... she met my father while she was in her gloriest n riches days but my father was a married man (>_<) My father was born into a rich family but it's jz my father's life to live the other half of his life in poverty (all my father's bussiness fails). When she met my father, my father was still rich but when she gave birth to me my father bussiness started to fall (maybe i was the bad luck 1?) n in the end, my mother sold off her house to lend the money to my father...
So we start living in poverty again...n wif a husband dat onli come home once in a few months (my father has another family)
My mother told me, b4 she got pregnant wif me, there was a japanese boss in the factory she work courted her. How i wish she's choosen dat japanese boss instead of my father. If she did, she wont hv to suffer for her whole life. I dun mind not coming into this world as long as she din suffer... or i might even come into tis world as a japanese girl XD den i'll b cuter! Lolsssss
Gtggggggggggggggg.... i'll try to write part 2 ASAP
p/s - Actually Cloud said i sound like Chinese Ed girl talking English XD Jz wanna pull his leg by writing he said i sound like "china girl" Lolx! Blek!
Thursday, August 14, 2008
LOST
I used to b flirty online. Lols... once i log in there's quite a few PMs "Dears/Darlings" But now, sometimes im still playful but i jz cant bring myself to call them "dear/darling" if i dun mean it. Wonder, i changed? Maybe... sigh
My aquarium's pump had spoilt for few weeks... luckily my 3 little gold fishies still live. But it's so pitying to c them swimming to the surface to breath. I'd went to the fish shop to ask the price of a new pump... it's around RM18... quite exp. Is there anyway i can DIY a simple pump dat can suck up the water to the top so dat filtered water will b recycle back to the aquarium? I tot of giving away these 3 little gold fishes but... they will swim to me wif big hungry eyes asking for food everytime i go near (>.<)
Human beings... no matter how much we tell ourself, how much we tell others dat we can live alone, we dun nid any1. It's all a lie. A lie to ourself n a lie to others.
We may not realise it, we may not realise how much dependent we'd bcome. It could b simple things like some1 particular or a particular fren dat is always there for us, doin things 2gether, chatting bout nothing, etc etc. But when this particular person started being absent, we'll feel LOST, EMPTY, LONELY... dats when we realise how deep we'd allowed this person into our life. Den we'll start being moody coz he/she's not around... sigh
Dun feel like eating 2day. Abit back pain too...
Cloud shud b in Cherating by now. How is it? Is the sky as clear as a glass? Is the sea as blue as a baby doll's eyes? Is the water as warm as the sunshine?
Hope u having fun (^_^) take care p/s - if something knock on ur door in the middle of the night, Dun Open! Lolx
9.25pm I'm feeling kinda moody n blue 2day even tho there were moments dat i 4got bout my moodiness but once back home everything came back. Loneliness, blues, bleakness, moodiness... While on the way to the CC earlier, i tried to go in between the cars coz it's very packed here since 2nite is the pasar malam nite. But the car on my left suddenly make a move backwards n i nearly bcame pancake Lol Hope my moodiness n blues will b gone tml. Very sleepy... Nitez my frens.
(>.<) Cloud said i sound like China Girl =P trying to speak English. Sobssssss
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Smirked
This morning, while surfing Ahmoi's Blog, i came across a girl (nice pretty girl) dat wrote out how much painful it is to fall in love wif a good fren. N she understand dat they will never b 2gether (seems like her fren hv his own probs/reason). Tis sound so familiar coz a fren of mine oso in the same case. But wat makes me flared up is a comment frm 1 of the Ahmoi Guys.
Even tho wat he said is true, he sound so snob. He could put it in another way dat wont make ppl like me tink he is snobbish, too bad... maybe he's not very good in words Whakakaka...
Tis is part of wat he said dat i agree Do you think is good to tell the guy that she love him? This is even worst. He will strike the iron whilst it is hot!! You think we boys do not know if the girl is not interested or have fallen into love meh? Or you have to wait for the girl to remove her panty then she is in love with you?? Ppls always said "guys frm Mars" I used to agree wif tis too but now, sometimes i feel dat it's not dat they dun understand wat we r trying to hint. Sometimes when we flung it to their face they still act dunno. Act Blur! This is guys ways to steer away frm troubles, to not get involved wif a topic or jz to stay neutral n have more opportunities. Tis is how they act as "not to hurt us" - as they called it. *smirk ironically* Lols
Tis is the part dat makes me tink he is snobbish My point is a girl must know how to make her best strength to obtain the best value for her in any undertaking including relationship. I do have many gfs which I do not like and they become big frogs jump onto me. The girl that is hard to get I will treasure her! Cheh... He sound as if he is a chest of gold! Frm wat i read frm his profile he was born in 1982 but he look like my dad (=.=") He could had use a better way to rephrase tis...
Lols seems like im in condemning mood 2day huh.... Actually im not, it's jz dat I beh tahan c such ppls. Ppls dat tot they r the best n every1 else is below them.
I'll update my blog if something else come to mind (^_^)
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
悄悄地走进我的心房
Jz now when i went out for lunch i saw a shop name "XXX Company (s/steel)" LOL the 1st thing dat came into my mind is "Huh?! Shadowsteel?" (>.<") i must hv been Cabal-ing too much. I dun tink there is such thing as shadowsteel in real world. It shud b "Stainless Steel"!
Sundays is always tiring n boring. Tiring coz normally Sunday morning i'll go to the local market, it's quite huge wif alot of things selling especially clothes n Dvds. So on Sunday there's alot of ppls n cars around this market. N y i said tiring again? coz normally i'll b spending alot of inner energy throwing daggers n trying to kill some inconsiderate noob drivers by my eyes! If stares could kill, they'll b dead by now Muahahaha~~!! Boring coz i wont b able to online for whole Sunday... SObs
I ran into some troubles ystd, luckily a fren helped me out... else i still dunno wat to do now (>.<) Tys, tys so much (T_T)
KL is a city dat is full of beggars. Once i even read dat some kids were forced into being beggars by some gangs. Everytime i go to market or pasar malam, there is sure to b a few beggars around. Some purposely put a pcs of cardboard n sleep in the middle of the tight, bz, small lane. Some women even bring along a baby to beg. N sometimes i suspect tis is not their baby! Sad case... babies n kids r innocent. How can they do tis to these innocent childs? But seems like tis is a never ending scenario (>.<)
RiRi so good got dear miss... Sobs
Lols! I realised sometimes im very dramatic in blog n oso in MSN conversation Hahaha~ N sometimes i flirt too much until those im flirting wif serious intention tot im jz kidding but those im flirting for fun tot im serious (@_@")
4pm Suddenly a quote/poem came into my mind (tis is wat i call inspiration! Yea~ LOLS).. it sound sad yet i tink it sound meaningful. I can even imagine a story out of it. Can some1 help me translate it into a nice chinese quote? I know i shud not miss u, i know i cannot stop missing u, But uncounciously u crept into my life, silently u walk into my heart. causing me unable to stop missing u tell me how can i stop missing u.
2 frens gave me the translation but i dunno which 1 sound better Ori de~ 我知道我不应该想念你 我知道不应该继续想念你 但不知不觉地你慢慢的闯入我的生命 悄悄地走进我的心房 使我无法停止思念你 请告诉我如何不想你
A very nice touching song but too bad no MTV 远远-林宇中
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Saladdddddddd
Tis afternoon i watch a Hindi movie dat touched my heart n make my silly eyes wet n sore (>.<) it's been very long time since i watch such good Hindi movie... So i decided to create a blog regarding movies or drama i happened to watch dat touched me. I named tis blog "I laughed n I cried" coz normally movies dat managed to touch my heart can makes me laugh n cry at the same time (weird me) I'll make it nice nice ASAP, most probably Tues... I'll b putting the link here too.
I'd been craving Dave's Deli's half mix salad for 2 weeks... Y Dave's Deli? coz it's the best i ever ate for the time being. It consist of coleslaw, broiled potatoes wif mayonaise, tomatoes n salad wif thousand island sauce n being top up wif grated cheese n pineapples (Yummyyyyyyy)
But there's not a single Dave's Deli around my place (>.<) n im lazy to take the public transport to other places... sigh... so i make do wif Pizza Hut's salad n Carrefours' (sobs)
Hmm... im back to the topic of Missing Ppls, the pain of the person missing a person dat is missing another person LOL Tis is regarding my fren Ms.A is in love wif Mr.B, Mr.B knew tis long long time le, n he even gave Ms.A hope once but suddenly he took back the hope making Ms.A confused n sad... sound like a jerk (=.=") But till now, Ms.A still cant give up hope... as all girls always do, even when there is onli 1% of hope. We keep hoping... (well nt me lar... i already start missing some1 else XD - i fall hard but i can get back on my feet fast, onli thing is, scared to trust n hope again) She keep on hoping, hoping for a change, for a little bit more of attention frm Mr.B But 2day when she saw tis guy missing some1 else dat dun miss him n sad bcoz dat some1 dun miss him back. She felt a stab into her heart (T_T)
Human is tis selfish n stupid... we know some1 is missing us, but somehow we miss other n suffer coz tis other dun miss us... Y cant we make those dat miss us happy by changing the person we miss to those dat miss us back? There will b less heartpain n more happiness if we can simply change our feelings n emotions easily.
My dear Ms.A, know dat i'll always try my best to b ur understanding fren whenever u nid me. Do take care n b strong! p/s-wan me change to real name? =P
Friday, August 8, 2008
Cheeeeesecake
2day when i was on the way home i bypass a cake house... n suddenly i wish for a slice of cheesecake (>.<) i can smell n nearly tasted it in my mind Mmmmmm.... Lols... but cheesecake is exp n FATTENING!
While on the road there was a guy dat Vroom Vroom in his car, he came up very fast frm bhind as if showing off dat his car is like race car (but the car look like Daihatsu nia) Cheh... beh tahan but finally he oso had to stop n wait in line like every other cars for the traffic lights whr else i can Vroom Vroom pass him to the front n b the 1st one to Vroooooommmm away when the light turn green Muahahaha~~!!!
I'd been feeling fine this whole day but somehow now, when im blogging tis im feeling a bit of blue...
2day is 080808, the day Olympic start in Beijing, China. Cloud, finally i realised wat day is tis date Lols...
080808 It's the most magical day of the millenium Make ur wish b4 it's too late And ur wishes will b fulfilled (the worst crap i ever tink of Sobs)
Sports event never interest me dats y im always a frog in the well bout these kinda things =P
But actually, sometimes i feel as if im onli living in my own world... But even if i live in my own fantasy world, i cant escape frm reality n real pain of everything... Sometimes i do wonder, wat the heck am i doin? wat the heck shud i do? wat the heck am i supposed to do? Wats the point of me in this world? wat am i here for?
Swt...
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Rainy Evening
It's raining softly when i come out of my office... Sadly my raincoat was stolen few days ago when i parked my bike at my apartment there. So i hv to go home w/o raincoat.
When i reached my apartment block i saw the mosquitoes terminator is there, spraying the mosquitoes spray so i decided to come out to the cyber cafe for a while den go buy dinner. Hopefully by the time i go home the spray is gone coz it's very hazy, poisionous n smelly (T_T)But i onli buy half hour credit Lols~
Add on 7.40pm Lately, whenever it's time to eat i'll b telling myself "i nid to diet"... n when im eating i remind myself "i nid to diet" (>.<) Lols... It's kinda a torture coz naturally i like to eat. Well not everything lar of course (im not rubbish bin) but i do enjoy food, i enjoy dining out wif right company. It's been a long long time since i dine outside (>.<) everyday ta pao home onli...
2nite i ta pao Asam Laksa (^_^)
But at least i get the result of my torturing myself... When i look down, i dun c my stomach! LOLS!!!
Earlier after i go off, i went to the Bookshop nearby my hse to buy my monthly manga (yoohoo~~) n while there i did some free reading Kekeke~
I read bout how corrupted M'sian's Malay is. They r very young, around 14-18yrs old but they r Gam(ok tis is malay word)/Glue(somehow tis word dun sound quite rite...) Addict (Sigh...) They r willing to do anything jz to get a can of glue everyday. Those malay girls they r willing to have sex wif any1 to satisfy their addiction. N some dat got pregnant, after they give birth, they r willing to sell off their baby for A can of Glue... After reading tis i do wonder, how can Glue which is to stick things make ppl "high" Hmmm.... tml i'll try Google it n find the answer.
This is a very Sad n Depressing read (>.<) Makes me feel sad...
But im glad dat Im onli addicted to Online Games, Online Chatting, Skyping, Flirting, Manga n Food Lolx... Oh yea n oso addicted to Money Whakakakaka... Money makes the world go round~ This is a fact dat no1 can deny. But any1 dat know me, know dat im not money face n i dun take advantage of ppls n frens (^_^) Cheh... Say myself till so good Kakakaka~
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
舍不得 (she bu de) ----弦子
Lols... the more i sleep the sleepier i bcome!!! But cannot dun sleep coz i already promised a fren (>.<)
Sometimes it's better to keep a a line, a border btween 2 frens. W/o crossing dat border things is much simpler, w/o expectations n hopes for anything.
Ally McBeal used to b my fav drama, sometimes i can relate to her Lols... she have this great imagination... like when she did something embrassing it would show dat she imagine n hope the earth would open up n swallow her... Dats wat always cross my mind too! LoL! (this is jz 1 of the examples of my imaginations XD) N i oso can feel her loneliness.... Sometimes longing for some1 i can depend on, some1 i can call mine... some1 i can hug when im down =P
Ally McBeal~~~ i miss it!!!
I like this song... i feel i can "connect" wif it (Lol wat kind of spiritual word is tis?) 舍不得----弦子
Recently din talk much wif Ori... RiRi~ I miss u~ Miss ur tik tok tik tok LOlx
Lols Cloud, u r my best intellectual partner... we can brainstorm alot poems! (^_^) I 4got to put up tis quote/poem? dat came into my mind wif the help of Cloud last week If i could go back to yesterday I would record ur laughter, If i could freeze 2day I would hold u close 2gether, If i could live tml I wish to be wif u forever. Awww....my poem IS sweeeeet LOLS~~~
This few days i can feel inspiration came into my mind for something to blog but it's onli fleeting... dats y i cant summon it when i realli sit down n blog Sobs~~ Hope i can blog better soon
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Muahahaha
It's been some time since i'd done any serious blogging. Like i said... im running out of emo to blog LOL
I tot i'll sleep early 2nite since i din sleep last nite coz of my frens but somehow i jz cant fall aslep (=.=") Now i realised i'd been an idiot... these 2 dun nid my help. Somehow they will patch up sooner or later. Lols looking at them frm a 3rd person point of view, they look like a couple dat "sa fa cheong" Lols! Im not goin to mind them anymore. Someday they'll bcome couple Muahahahaha!!!
p/s - After a fren of mine read this, he oso feel they r attracted to each other but dun wan to admit n dun wan to take a step back... dats y always argue LOL
a fool i am
I hv 2 frens, Ms A n Mr B... These 2 r like cats n dogs, quarrelling n forgiving all the time (maybe nt forgetting >.<) I tot im a good fren... telling each other to forgive the other. But 2nite i finally realised im jz a fool... supporting u all the way, trying to encourage u bout anything. Hope they can b the good frens they once was...
Monday, August 4, 2008
7th Mth
It's been a few days since i last blog... These few days i'd been suffering frm Migraine (headache) n Gastric... Been eating alot pills. Wonder when will all the pills digest (>.<) Head pain + stomach pain + back bone pain =
Lately the tv station has been airing alot ghost/horror movie, Chinese Ghost, Malay Ghost, English Ghost LOLS... i jz realised it's the 7th mth of chinese calendar. Which mean it's the mth when the ghost is released frm Hell for 1 mth to roam the human world...
I wonder... will i get to c my mum? Maybe i shud wake up in the middle of the nite to try waiting for her(>.<)
Old folks always say "dun go out after evening!" but i dun feel any diff... It's jz like everyday but a bit more livelier coz there will b alot of places dat have shows n singing for the King of Hell n all the ghosts.
Ystd i went to the pasar malam nearby for something dat taste good, u can smell it miles away. Well love by some but hated by others~ Lols... Smelly Tofu! But i din smell it frm miles away... But it certainly taste good XD
When i was lining up for the tofu, the guy in front of me has a very chatty fren LOL... very loud mouth... Actually this kinda guy is quite ok coz they can b very funny n frenly. They r not shy, urm... can say a bit thick face XD. But for me dat is shy to talk, i like to listen to such ppls.
Hope dat i dun fall in love wif u (i insert the lyrics myself XD)
How do u heal a broken heart
Friday, August 1, 2008
Headache (T_T)
After few mths of breezing thru my day n nights, my migraine came back wif a vengence 2day. Im in terrible pain 2nite. Had to take Paraceptamol n sleeping pills in the same time... Write more tml... Nitez every1
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Dreamers more than doers, they are sensitive to the hurts and happiness of others and are governed more by emotion than reason.
They seem to be loners but are in a search to connect with others.
Spirituality(emoness =.=") plays an important role, affecting all major decisions.
They are often destined for disappointment in love.(Sobs)
They may project their romantic notion upon the relationship only to discover that their partner cannot understand their spiritual needs.
