Sunday, May 31, 2009
Great 2nd nite wif boss n frens+my emoness+my fren's drama update
Last nite turned out to b fun after all.
Ori is the main singer of the nite but every1 helped sang LOL
Patrick (boss's bro in law) is very funny... the main clown xD
Funcky (boss) n Patrick is a very good host n we had a great time. But last nite they onli ordered 1 bottle of chivas, so every1's not drunk.
I had a few glasses, not drunk but jz had fun.
We finished at 3am but we sit there n joke till the workers come in to clean the room LOL, around 3.15am. Forced to leave...
Ori n her little bro sent me home, i tink i reached home around 3.30-3.45am, after bath n all that i slept around 4am++
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Above is the great outing which i enjoyed.
Now, is about my emoness >.<
I felt very disappointed when i heard that a person i always respected n thought wont do the things i considered a NO for a married man did it...
Well... actually it has nothing to do wif me, the person i respected is onli a fren, a big bro but still...
I feel very disappointed...
Maybe it's true after all, Men will always b Men. The gender that will fuck other woman and consider himself loyal to his wife/gf as long as his heart isn't wif the woman he fucked.
A trusted fren told me, MEN can b control... everything depends on the gf/wife.
But i dun believe in controlling my BF/HUSBAND. I prefer trust.
If i have to watch his every move, count his every cents... wat is TRUST? wat is LOVE?
Hmmm... maybe a truly loyal man onli exist in movies/dramas n dreams. Or maybe onli those dead or their penis dead will b loyal to their gf/wife... ZZZZ
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About my fren, her case is settled for the time being, 1-2 weeks ago, she ran away wif her youngest son.
Somehow her husband felt something was wrong wif her the morning b4 he left for work. So once he managed to get out, he return home... 10mins too late LOL
When he got home, his wife is already in the taxi on the way to bring her eldest son to his aunty bcoz she already think throughoutly n decided she cant afford to bring both of her sons.
When he reached home n realised his wife had run away, he got panicked n kept calling his wife (i was wif the wife... helping her escape >.<) but his wife dun wan to picked up his calls.
So she drop off her eldest son at his aunty's hse n leave fake news dat she will b goin to bus station to go other state. LOL... quite smart xD
The aunty told her husband so he went to the bus station n oso the train station to find her but he cant find her coz she never even leave KL.
Around afternoon. Her heart soften n she answered her husband's call Zzzzz
He managed to persuade her to meet n along wif his aunty n cousins to talk things through.
So i accompany her back to his aunt's hse.
He swear to break up wif the girl if she is willing to give him another chance.
My fren felt so undecided... she dun tink she still love her husband but bcoz of the 2 sons, she forgave him...
So now she is back home. She told me, her husband is treating her well for the time being... but dunno how long will it last...
If she is to divorce, i dun tink she will b able to bring her son again...
But then... it's ppl's family prob, Im not up to the position to say much.
So, here i am... writing out wats on my mind n updating all my caring frens dat is concern about my frens...
Let's jz wish her All the Best n hopefully she will b happy frm the day she go back onwards >.<
Saturday, May 30, 2009
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Typing this while waiting for the room Ori booked at Pavilion's Red Box Plug...
Getting bored lol, even tho it's fun wif all the frens around, somehow i feel disconnected >.<
Maybe bcoz i feel TOO FAT lol
Or maybe bcoz i come out too seldom =.=" not used to being around ppl anymore.
Erm... or maybe bcoz i prefer clubbing xD
Drinking n dancing... NICE xD
Thursday, May 28, 2009
1st outing wif WMO Family
Ystd, I finally went out to meet my WMO family - online frens for the 1st time.
Funcky Boss came frm Sarawak (the real reason he managed to get me out is - he asked me to help him buy an Antec 902 casing which is quite rare)
Mandy (ShortShort-WMO), Chiann Wen (Orihime-WMO), Vincent (Evo-WMO) came over to Kepong to picked me up in Mandy's yellow cute 2 door car LOL.
We went to The Curve to meet up wif Funcky Boss (Gerald), Boss's Bro In Law (Patrick), Egg Boss-WMO (Jacky), Zabimaru-WMO (Sunny), Silly Bear-WMO (Brian or Invin @@?), Sillyzen-WMO (Suzen), Orihime-WMO (Chiann Wen), ShortShort-WMO (Mandy)and Evo3-WMO (Vincent) for dinner at a Vietnamese Restaurant.
At first i wasnt looking forward for the dinner but when the food is actually served, i realised it's actually not bad n very healthy.
I ordered something dat came in a big bowl wif fried spring rolls(the fried spring rolls is good xD), oiless chicken chop, vermicelli, raw sliced carrot, beansprout, lettuce, grinded peanuts n some kinda salty sauce.
Woooot it tasted better than i expected n made me crave for it again ><
After the dinner, we went The Sanctuary for some drink. Funcky ordered 1 black label + 2 jug beer n Patrick ordered 2 bottles of chivas... but we cant finish all as expected. Left a bottle + of Chivas.
I found out dat im quite drinkable LOL... never tot i can drink for 4-6 glasses... Maybe they scared dat i might get drunk so they mix abit for me onli Kakakakaka
Went back around 12am... closure of my 1st outing wif on9 frens after years of hibernating xD
Monday, May 18, 2009
How many times u wanna kill her?
ZZZ he is so dam! Farker!
My fren swear to stop loving him, stop caring bout him n he realised dat he still nid to use my fren so he treat her lovingly
BUT
After they made love, her husband showered n walk out of the room n my fren peek frm the door n saw he touch(tight or dat dam bitch pussy-not sure but is around there) n hold the girl's hand!
Dam!
How many times he wan to kill my fren?!
Selfish mother farker!
Dam Bitch!
On sunday my fren cant control herself n burst out crying while quarreling wif her husband in front of the girl. Dat bitch jz sit there as if watching show
Arghhhhh!!!!! i Hate HIM i Hate HER
Bitch n Bastard!
Friday, May 15, 2009
Bitch
Dam... my fren dam emo...
Her husband said he dun love the girl, they r onli frens.
Now the girl came KL to work n staying in her house.
She realli cant take it... so 2day she told her husband "i give u my kids but i wan to walk out now"
Her husband worried that he cant find ppl to take care his kids he dun let her go.
He kept saying dat if u love our kids, pls stay until end of the month or until we finished wif our divorce procedure.
She oso worried dat her husband wan her to stay for the time being so dat the girl have time to get closer to her sons, n when her sons accepted her... her husband will kick her out...
But i tink if tis does realli happen, her heart will die totally as now her heart still havent die...
To realli divorce a person, ur heart must DIE TOTALLY else they r goin to break up n back again n again...
Haiz...
Im a woman, i understand how hurt my fren is. How i worried when she cant take it anymore will go suicide or bcome crazy...
How can dat girl b so selfish. She is a total bitch... knowing tis guy got family she oso wan to stick wif him. N she is onli 21yrs old while the guy is 31... Is she so despo to b Fcked or she tot all the man in tis world died?
Stupid bitch. Zzzzz
Im already troubled by my own prob... now added wif my fren's prob.
Dam... i emo everyday zzzz
Tis 2 weeks, after worry bout my fren i worry bout my own prob until i was unable to eat, unable to sleep n cry constantly...
I might break down sometime soon if things keep on like tis... tis few days had been feeling fuzzy n blur n my stomach starting gastric coz when i try to eat or drink something i will feel like vomitting after a few mouthfuls.
But 1 good thing came out of tis, i lose 2.5kg LOL... my pants bcame looser xD
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
A sad story
Tis is a partially true story, a story told by my fren n i added some imagination. N it's so sad i can even picture myself in it...
Once upon a time, there is a girl... a lovely girl(not exactly very pretty but shud b around 60% marks group) dat always tot she is an overweight ughly girl (every beauty starts wif a little skin care n make up =P)
She is a very kind soul, loving to help ppls. When the person she helped smiles she smiles.
But she came frm a poor family, a broken family... since a baby, she onli have her mum wif her... but her mum loves her, loved her so much when she brought her to KFC, she will wait until her daughter finished the meat n she will picked on the bones (T_T)
Tis girl... Lets name her Vanessa (eh... cannot name my story wif my own name =.=") Ok, let try again.
Tis girl... Lets name her Joanna (quite a nice name xD)
Bcoz she always tot of herself as ughly as godzilla, she acted tomboyish... Until she finished secondary skool. Then she started working in a factory as a clerk while studying part time. When she graduated wif a diploma, she stopped studying as she cant find a subject which she is truly interested in. So she continue working n tinking of herself as godzilla.
Her life was so simple back then even tho w/o the love of a man (never paktor until 21yrs old).
When she was 21, she started working in offices n started to learn how to dress herself n oso simple make ups. She started clubbing n discover the fun of life. She was attractive enuf to b in relationships but it was always short n abrupt.
When she was 22, she met a handsome guy, a real talker wif mouth dat was made frm sugar.
Of course, she fall head over heels wif tis amazing guy (to her he was amazing coz no1 frm such category courted her b4).
Well... tis guy is jobless, familyless (ran away frm family). Yet, bcoz of the love that blinded her, she turn the guy's every negative points into positive points.
She gave him all her money, she applied for credit card n gave him the card, she gave her passport to loan shark to get money for the guy.
She lied to her family, lied to her frens to boro money for the guy.
She aborted her 1st baby which was 3 months old alone when the guy was in a hotel sleeping wif another girl.
And yet, she forgave him. She tot her love can change him (wat a naive girl). Eventually she lost contact wif her family n her beloved mother (she passed away shortly after). She dun have the face to face her frens, so she lost them as well.
She lost her job not long afterwards.
Her life falled apart at a tender age of 22yrs old.
She throw away everything to b wif some1 she tot love her n she love him. Wat a foolish girl.
She lived like a rat avoiding loan sharks n wif a stomach as large as the soccer ball, she walked here n there to find work n other frens dat havent lend her money yet. Tis time, determined not to abort her baby as she tot her baby could change her bf.
When her stomach was real big, her uncle was kind enuf to rent a room for her n her so called husband (they registered). Her uncle helped him to get a job in the factory he work as security guard.
Her uncle will deliver lunch n dinner to her everyday...
To her, even tho she dun have any money, her life seems hopeful now. Her beloved husband working n her baby goin to be born soon. It looks like the rainy days is over...
But her husband cant work for long, not long afterwards he threw the towel wif thousands of excuses. Her uncle saw wat kind of rotten guy he was so he find some reason to report to the police to arrest her husband when she was away at the hospital giving birth.
At the night she was in labour pain giving birth to her 1st child. She was worried sick y her husband din turn up. The next day (when normal ppl will b staying in bed n waiting for family to bring food) she was in tears calling hospitals n police station to check izzit her husband had gotten into trouble. N true enuf, she found her husband in the police lock up.
On the 3rd day of her giving birth, she have to rush around finding rm2k to bail her husband out. Then lucky enuf, her relative helped her found a room. N while she was in the hospital, she knew another girl dat help her husband get a work as hard labourer.
He worked, for half month... since he stopped working means no food for the family n baby, she go out to find work. Having to always ask for advancement to feed her family.
She bear the burden until few years later when her husband went back to his family. His family gave him another chance n help support them. At tis point the girl was pregnant wif her second child.
Everything seems fine even tho there was times when her husband will stop work again. She will b the 1 worrying sick. Finding money here n there...
8 years later, her oldest child is 7yrs old n the second child is 5. Her husband doesnt love her anymore. He loves some1 else, he beated her when she try to run away wif her childs n never even asked her how is the bruises... he agreed to divorce her with the condition, she cannot bring her children...
But, her husband wan around 3 weeks time to talk to his family about the divorce n oso to find some1 to take care of the 2 childrens.
After suffering for 8 years, tis 3 weeks will be the hardest part of her life bcoz everyday she will b hoping that her husband will come back to her (he does come back everyday to sleep). Hoping that her husband still love her. Hoping for a comforting hug. But when she ask her husband again, he told her there's ntg we can do anymore. Divorce is divorce.
Everyday she will b hoping n her hopes will b crush. Everyday she will b crying until her eyes is all red n puffy.
She cant stand it all bcoz after everything she still loves her husband... When she urge her husband to hurry up telling his family, he will start shouting at her n getting angry... Sigh...
After sacrificing everything for 8 years, wat she get? Ntg... she get ntg... onli shorter life, heartaches, pain, loveless, familyless, frenless, moneyless... She got ntg at all after believing in love n a man she love for 8 hard years...
3 weeks to go... i wonder will she b tough enuf to endure it or will the next call i get is a news dat she suicide...
My dear, pls b tough n give up ur love for tis useless, hopeless man.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Love n Money
Love... is something so scary n yet every1 is drawn to it irresistbly.
I'd seen alot of my frens laugh n dance bcoz of love n yet i'd seen lots of my frens cry bcoz of it.
I myself had been thru it. It may be sweet n everything seems like heaven but suddenly something went wrong n u felt as if u'd been thrown into hell.
I wish i will not fall into the traps of love anymore in my life.
Money... is something SO important in our life until we can die w/o money.
Unlike the old days (those in tvs) we can go hunting when hungry, chop wood to build house n keep warm, skin livestock when we nid clothes.
But nowdays, w/o money... u dun have food, w/o money u dun have house, w/o money u will either cold or hot to death.
Why, in tis already troubled world... must our life still always b control by these 2 things?
Can a person realli bcome like how Buddha teach us? to discard all these dat is surrounding n controlling our life?
Can a person realli live onli in the guidance of Buddha n not b bothered by these 2 problems anymore?
I wish... to try... Maybe i will...
Monday, May 4, 2009
Unfair
2day is the day my fren's husband goin out to meet the girl.
She jz called me up n tell me dat she felt funny packing her husband's belonging bcoz her husband is goin to stay overnite wif the girl. She even bought a box of condoms for him but he scold her n said that he wont b having sex wif the girl.
But she secretly put into his bag when she packed his things.
She told me she's not feeling any jealousy but she felt anger. Dam anger for not asking for divorce, dam angry to her husband n herself. She wish her husband will not come home.
But while she is telling me this, she broke down n cried.
Haiz... im starting to hate MEN
How could they treat us women like this? Why dun they jz divorce us if they found some1 better for themself outside?
Y r they so selfish. They onli tink that their childs cannot live in a broken family but is it fair for us women to endure such things jz so that our childs have both parents?
I dun tink so...
If my husband is like this, i rather he divorce me b4 goin to the other woman. I can still take care of my childs as there is lots of single parent childrens.
Haiz... i felt the pain n anger n anguish of my fren... How i wish things will turn out differently.
Maybe it's time she learn to stand on her own 2 feet, go out n rediscover the world.
She told me her husband will not let her have her 2 childs if they divorce. It's a hard decision to make but i wish she can harden her heart n take the steps she have to if she realli cant stand it anymore.
Is it correct of me to advise her for a divorce or shud i tell her to jz keep quiet? I dunno... when im in the same shoes, i wont know wat to do either. But i know the inner me would wat to rage it out n get a divorce no matter how hard my life will b to re-start my life.
I wish her... all the best...
Take care my dearest fren...
