Saturday, July 25, 2009
He's angry
Jz came back frm Karaoke and Yamcha wif my colleague coz it's a farewell party to 1 of my colleagues whom is leaving us.
It was quite boring at first coz im not very close to them yet and it's a mix races group, chinese+malay+indian so of course malay will come out too and it did about 50% of the time.
The karaoke is quite nice, situated at Sunway wif buffet too. Luckily in the end boss came n ordered chivas, else i early early go home sleep better LOL
After drinking for around 5glasses, a bit tipsy... cant even find my bike LOL. When found my bike, cant find my parking ticket Hahaha...
I told HIM tis and he told me to be careful n text him when i reach home. I replied ok n cant reply anymore coz my phone out of credit and it's 1am++ and i dunno whr to find 7-11 to reload. So i followed my colleagues yamcha so that they can show me whr is the nearest 7-11 and halfway yamcha he called me. When he heard dat im yamcha-ing he sound bor song then din talk much n hang up...
5-10mins later he sent me an sms saying he waiting for me to get home safely but i was out there yamcha and dun nid reply him. 99 n take care >.< i feel so dam bad... Haiz... I know it's my fault. A fren care and worry about my safety but i went yamcha...
After finish yamcha 2.30am i rush to the 7-11 to reload my phone... and knowing he told me dun reply... but i replied anyway apologizing and stating y i went yamcha...
Haiz... im so afraid he'll withdraw frm me again but i told myself im not go to bug him until he give in like what i always did last time because we r onli best frens, furthermore, he's in relationship now n i dun wan his gf to misunderstand but i hope i can control the urge not to bug him T_T
I know im goin to feel no mood until we r talking and close again but... Im NOT GOIN TO BUG HIM T_T (hope i can do it!)
Better sleep now... 3.40am n nid wake 7.30am to work tml...
Haiz...
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Jacky's situation
Oh ya, i'd promised a fren to blog about this and hope to get some opinions of my frens
I have a fren around 30yrs old. He had divorced years ago when his wife suddenly ran away wif his 2 kids. But he told his frens he was unmarried. Recently, about the beginning of this year, his wife suddenly threw back the 2 kids at him and din even tell him anything. Jz leave the 2 kids at his work place n went off.
Since then, he'd been taking care of the 2 kids wif the help of his family members. He changed work so that he can have some free time to take care of his childrens but his life suddenly changed 360 degrees. He even have to give up persuing a girl he was trying to tackle before all this happen. Nowdays, he spend Sun-Fri being Daddy and onli have his 2 childrens to spend time wif. And onli can come out on Sat.
He never tell this to any of his frens except 1 of his old old fren n me. He asked me "will every1 avoid me when they know the truth?"
I told him, nope. It's not like u r married all the time and hiding 2 childrens while u go out have fun wif frens and telling them u r single. But he still worry he will lose his frens if he them the truth.
Hope my avid readers and fans (kekeke) will give some opinion about tis case of my fren.
Poor girl
I'd blogged about beggers in Malaysia b4 but what i saw 2nite left me speechless, heart soured, no appetite and totally no mood.
I'd always read and heard about kids's hands or legs being chopped off and forced to beg on the streets but i'd never c a real 1. Normally those at chinese pasar malam is realli handicapped or a woman carrying a little baby (wonder whr they kidnap those babies, police shud realli do something bout all this. Can i start a website about tis?) There is a family of begger. Always the mother doin the begging while the husband(father) and 2-3 other sons sleeping. I guessed she drugged those childrens to sleep all the time. Sometimes in the market frm as early as 7am till 12pm and sometimes i c them at the pasar malam means 6pm-10pm+... Haiz
This evening i went to Sunway's pasar malam which is on the way for my journey home. I walk a round to c wat they have and what i can buy for dinner. I like those "capalang" mixed food and i can feel the saliva doubling in my mouth even tho i try to control and dun eat... Ok lor, c n smell enuf Hahahaha... But when i saw HER, all my appetite gone.
She is nearing teen years, body starting to develop but her left hand and leg gone. Cleanly chopped off. I cant believe my eyes, the more i try to find fault at her hand n leg to find evidence dat she suffer some kind of illness or accident which cause it to be chopped off the heavier my heart get. Im so tempted to squad down and ask her what happened to her hand n leg but if she is truly a victim frm the syndicate, i dun tink she will tell or she might be beaten when telling.
Another thing that come to my mind is, OMG... since they can do such inhuman thing to her, will they rape her? she is a pretty little thing or will they prostitute her when she is too old to beg?
After i walked away, i dun have the mood for my dinner anymore and make my way home while sending sms(s) bout wat i saw n saddened me to a few of my frens. And as expected, every replies i get dissapointed me except a close fren's reply... Haiz
A close fren that i can communicate well wif but will onli remain close frens forever Hahahaha
Seriously, Malaysian's police should do something about this. It's getting more and more serious. Dun onli know how to lay traps for motorbikes! zzz
Monday, July 20, 2009
After sending my bike to service and change of break, I feel so alive on the road this morning. Hahaha... It's fun xD
The reason im making this entry at this time when im working is bcoz i get a funny msg frm some1 in my msn. I never talk to him before but he started of by asking "do u wan a ons"
Normally i wont bother to reply such msg but feeling abit bored 2day so i replied by asking "what makes him tink im the type for ONS and try to convince me lor" hahaha
i shall paste the conversation here xD
Marcus says:
life is short ma, we need to enjoy every moment
haehee
try new thing when we young
no regret at old time later
hahahha
Hun('.')Hun says:
maybe a pic of u will be more convincing xD
Marcus says:
haha
then ur picture ler?
Hun('.')Hun says:
i jz changed job, so no pics here
Marcus says:
ic
u pracitce ons before this?
Hun('.')Hun says:
nope
u r married or attached?
dats y find ons?
Marcus says:
not mary
Hun('.')Hun says:
inn relationship?
Marcus says:
yup
hehe'
Hun('.')Hun says:
u love her?
Marcus says:
sure la
just need more fun only
hehe
always one partner sien also ma
hehe
Hun('.')Hun says:
true.. so if she find a ons too will u mind?
Marcus says:
sure not mind la unless we marry
hehe
Hun('.')Hun says:
u sure u wont mind?
Marcus says:
sure
Hun('.')Hun says:
but im sure she will mind if she found out her bf feel sienz n find ons
Marcus says:
no lar
we got agreemtn ;a
Hun('.')Hun says:
oh
means u been practising ons for some times?
Marcus says:
few times only
hehe
u single?
Hun('.')Hun says:
yup
Haha... if i go for ons, dat guy will be very dam lucky not bcoz im pretty or wat coz i dun practise ons...
Sunday, July 19, 2009
LOL... Ori my baby, dun say sorry. I actually enjoyed taking dat walk wif cloud. Actually he's a very gentlemanly and sweet guy Haha... n im so glad i finally found a fren dat i can be so close to (physically) kakakaka...
Ystd when i went lunch wif Ishu boss, his gf and Mijie, Ishu boss say i changed... I'd become a ghost now hahaha... Did i realli change into such a bad person?
I dun tink so, it's like i jz found my freedom xD And im hoping by tis time next year i'll be an active volunteer dat will always be sent overseas for humanitary missions Hahaha.... my dream again even when im not sleeping.
Last nite when Mandy sent me home, we had a nice chat n she told me it'll be wiser for me to find a job dat is in KL. She told me, it's not worth the bucks if i have to waste my time n energy travelling so far everyday. Actually, i agreed wif wat she said n i'll try my best to find a job which is nearer to KL but i realli feel ps if i have to leave my current company when i'd joined not even few months. I dun like to be an ungrateful and irresponsible person even tho as a human, i shud put myself foremost in all my decisions.
Anyway, i appreciated Mandy for her advise and i'll surely try to do something by finding a nearer job or move over to Subang soon...
Very cold in this cc, gotta sign off now b4 i turn into an icewoman >.<
Jz came back frm a yam cha outing wif a whole WMO gang lol... at "little genting" as told by Ori but "out look point/look out point?" as said by Cloud. It was my 1st time there. It's nice n cooling wif a view of the city below us even tho the city isnt very nice haha... I was supposed to walk up wif ori to have a look since it's my 1st trip but she forgotten bout me (sobs haha) and Cloud accompany me instead.
Hehe... i invited Cloud over to join our gathering n im so glad dat i did so n he realli turned up else i'll be bored to death even tho i can easily join in their conversation, but i dun have any1 specific whom i can talk n laugh n joke n confide in.
N cloud is some1 i can have "intelligent" conversation wif LOL as if im so smart sia...
Finally i met the whole WMO family. Kaelz/DongDong/Alethea/Mon/and the usual gang - Mandy/Ori/Egg/Zabi/Ishu/Sillybear/Suzen
It's quite a nice outing n i enjoyed another outing wif cloud. But too bad Nemo's not there n Ishu boss seems bored >.< Told him to try call Nemo but he din =.="
Actually Cloud's a very nice guy n very good fren. A gentleman too. N i realli enjoy the closeness we have kekeke xD
He even paid for my drink when it's A-A term for the gathering and wats sweet is, he sms-ed me to text him when i reach home.
Ok Ok i have to stop this b4 i fall for him Kakakakaka
We r buddy~! yo~ yo~
hahaha
I got quite a deep cut when i was cutting the ingredients to cook curry chicken earlier on my right hand pointing finger. It's dam painful even now when im typing T.T
Tired... goin sleep
Thursday, July 16, 2009
New Work
Ystd was my 1st day at my new workplace. It's ok, the colleagues there is frenly and i can mix well wif them. I cant surf the net in the office coz it's restricted and i cant install Cabal either bcoz i nid admin password to do so... Sobs, looks like im realli quitting online games le... Gudbye my frens, Gudbye my pets (my husky and pumpkin), Gudbye my Ishu Boss... Sobs...
I can onli on MSN n Skype there, so any of my frens dat wan find me. Jz msn me ba...
My new work is ok except that i'd been lost for 2 consecutive days (ystd n 2day) when trying to come back to KEPONG =.=" realli swt... zzzz
Finally i know whr i went wrong. So i think tml i wont get lost anymore.
Cloud, asked me when i went on a date wif him "what propelled u to suddenly make such big changes in life"
I was suprised he asked that coz even those most closest to me doesn't feel my changes but a fren dat wasn't very close to me noticed. Since then, i realli like him as a good fren type (i wont mind seducing u =P)
So far, onli Cloud and Ishu boss realised i changed...
Hmmm... what actually made me changed?
Well... it's true something actually happened in my life in these 2-3 months dat made me changed 360 degrees and im still changing for im goin to move away frm Kepong soon and im even hoping to find a job in SG.
I threw away my self-conciousness and shyness. I used to cared what others tink of me about 90% but now, i onli care 30%. I nid to bring myself out of my shells bcoz now im truly ALONE.
I changed job, bcoz this new job give me a slightly higher pay but wats most important is. Its gonna b a totally new place, and hopefully a new life which will be better than my previous. And at here, i can learn alot new things, even tho i'd worked in few shipping fields before, namely - freight forwarding, feedering, forwarding, etc but this company. They doin everything including transportation and even ship husbandary (vessel's spare parts)
No doubt i'll be very bz and workload will increase but i c this as a chance for me to learn more and to c the world wider. Im oso hoping to join the NGOs asap... Wishing 1 day i'll be able to volunteer world wide wherever there is disaster. It's time i finally make my dreams come true.
Im goin to miss every1 frm my virtual world, especially Ishu Boss and im sure they will drift apart frm me and eventually there is ntg to talk about anymore. Even tho tis pain me and i'll miss HIM very very much but tis is life. I have to go on wif my life... coz time wait for no1 Haiz... how i dreaded having to give him up...
Im able to type this long long blog 2day coz i jz came back frm dinner wif Ori and Mandy. They brought me to Chow Kit for our dinner. It was good. We had fried bee hoon which is laden wif oyster, squid, pork, vege and fried pork's oil (wats it call?). Beside that we had BitterGourd's soup and stir fry vege (yau mak dam). It cost us rm39.90 for our dinner which we shared. Errr.... me and ori pay rm10/each LOL the rest Mandy bao >.<
Im very dam sleepy now coz i'd been waking up 6.30am every morning to go to work but y im still here making an entry? Bcoz im sure if i go home now i'll fall flat on my bed n sleep. But im too full to sleep now, so i make a trip to the cc to digest n online for a while.
Monday, July 13, 2009
back frm 1st sg trip
Whoa... i jz came back frm my trip to SG.
Even tho, the time i was there i din go anywhr except to dinner wif the cabal gang. I enjoyed myself coz i feel free, unbound, alive and wif Vernette and her 4 cats as companions i dun feel lonely or alone =)
Maybe i'll start looking for a job in SG xD
I'll post the pics of cabal gang - IshuTeam when Vernette send me. We all had dinner on Sunday @ 12/7/2009 at Vienna which is nearby Novena MRT station... I was satisfied wif myself as i get to b independent and take MRT/LRT and Busses myself and able to reach my destination w/o getting lost. Sometimes i even got lost in KL lol
Maybe it's time i spread my wings and go more places (after i save a bit money sin >.<)
During my bus back, there is onli 6 person on the bus LOL. befrended and auntie which was nice and frenly. And a korean girl who is backpacking south east asia ALONE. I admire her and i tried to bring her to her destination at China Town even tho im not familiar wif the road myself LOL.
I gave her my phone and asked her to call me out for yamcha while she'll still in KL =) and she is working with the NGO back in Korea which im also interested. Hehe... maybe it's realli time for me xD
She might be calling me this weekend and im happy that i'd changed. I'd changed from a very shy person even tho helpful to a very frenly and helpful person =)
1 thing im sad, i kinda lost the onli person i can tell everything and he can tell me everything. Maybe he's nt alone and occupied now but i can feel him clamped up on me... Haha... bor bian, life goes on but i'll still be here for him anytime and i'll be more than happy to hear frm him anytime =)
Sunday, July 12, 2009
1st time in SG
Finally, im in SG...
I was cheated, the ticket seller in KL said the bus goin SG but when we reached johor baru, the driver say no... zzzz
So he directed me to take transit. I got down at MY custom n took another bus to SG custom. ZZzzz frm sg custom i took the bus till Victoria street and took a cab to Vernette (freefrag) 's hse.
Hehe... staying wif her. Drinking martell while typing this xD
Now i know y SG so big but go anywhr nid so long. Coz the bus driver so dam courteous (dunno izzit the right word >.<) they drive so dam slow LOL
If MY bus driver, they will be stepping on the gas pedal until it nearly touch the road Hahahaha
My Vernette darling, when she walk down to fetch me frm the cab, she was smoking... from afar she looks like thos dai gar che frm movies LOL even tho she is small n skinny xD wait she read this Hahahaha...
She's staying alone in the hse, kinda big and fully furnished... so shuang ><
Ok, will be goin dinner and meet the rest of SG Cabal gang tml...
Oh yea, after so many yrs i din contact my old fren frm penang - Keat (mr.bean) i found out he passed away >< in an accident few years ago.
How much i miss him... Haiz... so sad cant c him anymore ><
Cloud, in case u saw this b4 i go back MY, i wont b disturbing u for few days coz to sms MY is very exp zzz n my phone left 16cents...
For the sms i sent u, u were supposed to continue n finish it larrrrrr not comment it...
Im like a little boat dat lost its oars in the big sea
Im like a little bird dat lost its direction
Continue lorrrrrrrr
Ghost, tis time im realli in SG!~~~ wanna meet? Hehehe
Friday, July 10, 2009
After so long din visit ahmoi, i visited it 2day n saw a not bad post... Hehe
What ur horoscope say bout u in sex terms...
CANCER
Great Kisser. Very high sex appeal.
Great in bed. Most horny.
PISCES
Caring. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy,DAMNIT. Very high sex appeal. Has the last word. Extremely weirdbut ina good way
LIBRA
Very gentle. Nice. Love is one of a kind. Sillyandfun! Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you willevermeet!
AMAZING in Bed.!!!!!
CAPRICORN
Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future.
Irrestible, awesome kisser. Great talker.
Always gets what he or she wants. BY FAR the BEST in BED.EVERYPERFORMANCE!!!!
AQUARIUS
Trustworthy. Sexy. Rare to find. Loves being inlongrelationships. Extremly energetic.
Amazing in bed, the BEST lovers.
ARIES
Outgoing. Spontanious. No one to fvck with. Have ownuniquesexiness. Unpredictable. Erotic.
Funny. Addictive. Take you on trips to the mooninbed.
TAURUS
Aggressive. freak in bed. rare to find. lovesbeingin long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for whattheywant.
Extremly outgoing. Outstanding kisser. sexualas****.
LEO
Great talker. Always the life of the party.Sexy.Horny all the time. Attractive physically or mentally(sumtimesboth) Can be Laid back or Wild. Knows how to have fun. Isreallygood at fvcking . Great kisser.
VIRGO
Dominant inrelationships.Sexy.AlwaysHorny.Freak in bed. Always wantsthe lastword.Loud.Caring.Smart.Loves being in longrelationships.Addictive . Passionate.
SCORPIO
sexy. Talkative. Energetic. Predict future.Mosterotic.Freak in bed.Good kisser. not one to mess with. alwaysgetwhat they want.
SAGITTARIUS
Spontanious. Horny.High sex appeal.
Rare to find. Good when found.
Loves being in long relationships.
GEMINI
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listenersVeryGood in bed. Lover not a Fighter But Still Punch Your LightsOut.Trustworth
haiz
Haiz... maybe my emoness lead to him getting angry and emo me ystd evening. Now he is treating me so cold like stranger...
I tot i can let it go n 4get him jz like dat. I tried nt to tink but normally if i have some1 unhappy wif me, it'll bug me all the time. But to his case, it bugged me more than the others. I woke up middle of the night missing him ZZzzz but i control, i dare not go on9 or sms him coz im afraid i will lost control.
Bside, im confuse over his every action n words ZZZ n now the situation btween us seems so awkard
Thursday, July 9, 2009
My last virtual crush
Here i am, Pusat Bandar Damansara blogging. Why am i here? I came to pay for the approval of my passport (owe Ishu =.=) and picking it up tml. But im stranded here coz it's raining cats and dogs out there and i dun have raincoat...
Hmmm... it's been so many years and i'd never even think of applying for a new passport(lost) but since Ishu came back, he told me - Lets go SG meet Eliz, Owl they all and "55 go make ur passport"
So, i go to the all the trouble of making police report and finding ways to get my passport in 1 week but in the end he told me "not confirm goin..."
Haiz... i was kinda angered bcoz i realli went to all the troubles to get my passport by hook or by crook done in 1 week (no much time left for me. Starting work next week). N in the end, "Not Goin"! ZZzzz
Haiz again... i even thought of goin alone but then, i dun have enuf money T.T Looks like i wont b goin anywhr until i start work. Hope the time flies faster if like tis.
I hate cloudy and gloomy weather, especially 2day. I feel so sad, alone and lost here. Luckily, there is a Lan shop nearby and im able to pour out to my blog.
Im oso extra sad 2day bcoz, the guy im infatuated with... finally, i knew the truth. Looks like, im nvr goin to trust him again. I can trust him wif my frenships but not my heart.
I finally woke up frm my infatuation and crush after 1 year. Hahaha it's very silly of me. I feel very hurt and lost all of a sudden but i know i will recover frm it soon and i dun wan to have a crush for any1 anymore. So it's a good thing i'll start work soon n b away frm him.
Im goin to start work n no time for onlining and playing games anymore. So, this will be my last crush and silliness. Not bad... He'll be the last memory of my virtual life.
Haha... i love my theme song... i realli feel like "it's a total eclipse of my heart" now...
Ok, enuf talking about my sadness.
Last night i went out with Cloud and i realli had a good time. Other than Ishu, he is the onli 1 i can actually communicate and talk with.
He's much more good looking than his Msn pic xD but how i wish he is a bit taller or me a bit shorter >.< But all in all, i realli like him alot. He's a good date LOL
We went to The Curve for dinner (i intro him to the vietnamese food i went wif Funcky boss+gang[i missed it xD]) and after dinner we went to Cineleisure for 3d Ice Age 3.
Haha...finally i have a companion that can accompany me watch cartoons xD
He's a gentleman too... even offered to walk me to my door. Thats very nice. I onli saw that in TV lol... N to make sure i went home safely, he told me to sms him when reached. Thats sweet, my fren. I wonder how come u r still single when u r so sweet... maybe u r choosy? I can fall for u de lor Hahahahaha Jk Jk
I know i'll be lonely and lost and all that especially after i move to Subang... But i realli had enuf of being lead on, given hope and crushed. Hope i can b strong and stop my stupid heart for beating for any1 else except myself.
My frens, wish me luck... Haiz...
5.31pm n still raining! T.T
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Im always emo, always over sensitive but this time. I realli feel it... He seems diff since Fri... everything was still fine on Thursday, in fact everything was perfect on Thurs... Some of my close frens might know wat im talking bout.
Haiz... dun wan to ask him again. Action is more realiable and i saw wat is showing and happening.
Now, trying very hard to treat him as buddy. But i miss him, realli miss him so much. The harder i hide it, the more i miss him. haiz... i cant tell him this...
1st meetin of some1 from ahmoi
Aiya... Egg boss has been sick since ystd... Stomach ache and high fever.
Wanted to go his home to help him abit but then, i was a bit bz and it's so far =.="
Hope he will recover soon and later c how ba.
Last nite i went out meet some1 from ahmoi. My 1st meeting with some1 from ahmoi after so many years. Actually wanted to meet my old sarcastic buddy Cloud but too bad, he's in Johor for a fren's wedding xD
So i met another fren instead. Ntg much, jz chatting in the car. Wanted to go for yamcha... but when chatting in the car, his hand strayed to my leg too many times i decided i better get out of the car n go home ASAP.
Well... he's not bad looking. Very tall and kinda big n not bad looking but i dun like those type of guys that act like this. Years ago, i stopped meeting frens frm the internet coz too many buayas. Manatau, years later, my 1st meeting (other frm game frens) is a buaya... maybe not so daring but 1st meeting touching me like that is already DARING! LOL (ok, hope he din read tis, dun wanna him to ps coz after all we r still frens)
I prefer some1 who is loud and notty when chatting but when it comes to real life meeting, he is a totally gentleman. Like HIM lol
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Siao liao la... the 1st thing that came into my mind when i woke up 2day isnt to go toilet but HIM... Zzzz he came into my mind when i woke up in less than 3 secs =.="
Ok, must keep reminding myself that it's impossible and we r jz best frens =.="
Very lonely and boring 2nite. Maybe i shud go for a blind date LOL. Blind date of a movie wif Alan... LOL
But then again, i miss HIM... so much. Especially 2day coz not much interactions wif him. Feel he kinda withdraw frm me, but when i asked... he said nope.
Im oso siao lar... part of me wan to give up but another part of me hoping for something more. But all in all, frens or anything more. I jz wan his frenship, cares and attention like how it used to be T_T
Friday, July 3, 2009
Bad luck, bad luck!!!
This few days, Egg boss has being very helpful. Im a total failure in finding my ways in KL and PJ but Egg boss being helping showing me which way is which way. Especially to my interviews and oso to the immigration dept.
Very grateful to him =) Better write more good things bout him coz he's trying to view my blog now xD kakakakaka
Been very bad luck 2day. This morning while on the way to Immigration Dept at Pusat Banday Damansara, i was stopped by the JPJ at LDP highway. They r on an operation of screening bikers (or hungry and trying to get some bonus before Hari Raya =.=)
I din bring my road tax - 1 offense (but they let me go on this)
I dun have license - 2 offense (expired years ago...)
So in the end i kana a saman Zzzzz
Too bad i dun have enuf asset, else i'll wear something mouth watering everytime i go out on bike so that they overlook my offenses Whahahaha... >.<
In the afternoon i lost my "lift's card" which i nid to go home. Haiz... kill me pls. I'd been very very bad luck this year. Hopefully tis is the climax =.="
Nid alot of money to rebuy my card and oso to pay the saman... Haiz
midnite rumble
Hmmm... been insomnia for 2 days. Ystd i cant sleep until 4am++ and woke at 7am. I was bz the whole day trying to apply for a new passport but somehow, 2day i cant sleep again... already goin 3am and im wide awake.
Dunno wats wrong with me. Something is terribly wrong with me i tink.
Haiz... life is frustrating sometimes. Especially in relationships area. When i gave up everything and take it as buddies, there seems to be hope. But when there is hope, i tend to be dissapointed.
I think it's better i jz keep it as buddies. It's better being the person he trusted most and still able to be by his side than to carry myself away because afraid of the hurt and pain and lost him forever.
It's very dam frustrating having feelings for ur best fren. Especially some1 as playful and flirty as him. When, i can keep myself under control and dun go talk/sms/msn/etc him 1st, he will come ask me "wat u doin". Sometimes, i wish he will draw a clear line wif me. A line that put me n him in "best fren" place. Or maybe all this while is myself confused and over think. Haiz... it's starting to feel painful hearing him talk bout this girl, that girl, this ex, that ex... ZZZzz i MIA better
Soon, i'll start my new work and i wont have time to on9 anymore. From there we will drift apart. Maybe it's a good thing after all...
Haiz... maybe i shud get a glass of vodka. It's been quite sometimes since i last drank. After drink maybe i can sleep...
Goin for another interview tml, at a place nearer to whr i stay - Phileo Damansara. Hopefully i can get the job with higher pay. Hehe...
Relationships... i tink im gonna give up on this. It's enuf to have buddies and frens. I shall work harder to save so that i can travel. Let the Wild Sagi inside me loose. That's why im trying to reapply for my passport so that i can put down everything that has been troubling me and go far far away even jz for a short time. How i wish i can go backpacking across the globe. Waaaa.... that will be geng!
Eh he... i 4got, i lost 7kg in 1mth+ LOL... nice... hope can go on losing more xD
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Costly dinner and yamcha...
Earlier, went out dinner and yamcha wif Ishu(Qv)/Nemo(Kevin)/Zabi(Sunny)/ShortShort(Mandy)/Brian(Sillybear)/Suzen.
We went to Ka Ka Bah Kut Teh for dinner which cost Ishu rm132 (=.="). Then we went to Old Town for yamcha which cost him rm60... Very costly dinner and yamcha...
But i came home feeling sooooo dam full and feel like a bit vomitty...
Nice outing as im hoping to go out wif them more =)
