Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Blabbering...bla...bla...bla...
Called up my dad ystd to c how he is. His phone on timing is very weird, 7-11am... onli 4 hrs available for me to call...
Whenever i called him im expecting the worse... tis dun mean dat im cursing him but wat else can i expect lol...
Dun ever expect my step sis n bro will call me up if anything happen to him n i dun even know whr he lives (=.=")
Luckily when i called him ystd he sound fine n healthy even tho he jz had a fall n broke his arms few months ago. Glad to know he's fine now even tho he never did his fatherly duties to me. Except the sperm given my mum... ZZzzzz i rather he din gave her dat sperm n gave birth to me n make me n my mum suffered.
From the bottom of my heart, i dun mind not coming into tis world. I would had thank him if he never brought me into tis world.
When i was a child, i wish for a normal proper family. I always went to my fren's house which consist of a loving mother, father, 1 elder sister, grandma n grandpa while my mother gamble for our food next door.
How i envy my frens...
But when i grew into young adulthood, dat is secondary skool. I'd learnt to love my solitude. I'd learnt to love being alone. Some ppls might tink im weird. Hmmm... actually i AM weird. N it aint easy to find some1 who can live wif my weirdness n over sensitiveness n over emoness n over active imagination LOL
Sometimes, i can picture myself building a wall around me but somehow i left my heart out there to b trample by passerby...
Wonder, will someday, some1 kind pick it up n return it to me...
Ok, Ok, my weirdness is back LOLS
Starting to get headache again... Sigh
