Friday, October 3, 2008
Stress
It's sad to hear dat XxHeibixX, dat is Vernette's dear had decided to quit Cabal but it's totally depressing to hear dat he decided to delete his char which is lvl 155 FA!
Sigh... Love, feelings, emotions, heartaches, relationships makes ppls do crazy things. It sound ridiculous but it's the truth. Sometimes, i do crazy things too when i have feel for some1 but i always try hard to supress my emotions.
Im a person dat fall fast n hard but i oso recover fast. Longest time given to myself would b 1 mth but normally im back to normal in 2 weeks or even less.
2nite my ingame didi (he quitted) told me dat he's gonna marry his gf (he's 16! OMG) i was dumbfounded when i heard tis. To commit oneself at the young age of 16 is like... ancient story!
Not dat i wish for anything bad for him but i totally cant imagine committing oneself at the tender age of 16 when u were like a little fish in the fish bowl, not knowing there is much more to the world out there except ur little bowl, not knowing there is prettier fishes out there, not knowing there is a whole different life out there...
I told him, couple is no problem, all ppls paktor even frm such young age. Den he told me they living 2gether.
I told him, sex is no problem either, as long as they take precautions... But he laughed at me...
Anyway, I wish dat u will b happy n wont regret wat u urself choosen.
Vernette told me once dat sometimes she felt stressed ingame. Now im feeling the stress.
Im stress when i c him close to others ingame n im stress when he dun pay me the amount of attention he always gave me.
Im stress to know it's impposible...
Im oso stress when some idiot kids pm me.
Im stress when selfish players pm me.
Im stress when the stupid pm system get to my nerves.
Im stress when i cant stand them anymore n start scolding but felt guilty afterwards!
SWT
Oh man! i guess im jz stressed!
I'll TRY not to play so much. Out of sight, out of mind!
Once, long long time ago my dad told me dat it's impossible for a male n female to b good frens b4 1 sided ended up being hurt somehow. Dat time i laughed it off. I said y impossible? Frens no big deal! Now... i feel the words sunk in (T_T)
