Thursday, January 1, 2009
Happy 2009...Will u miss me?
Wishing all my frens n readers a happy new year
2day, im unhappy... n i have no1 to talk to, even if i have some1 to talk to they will say dat im foolish n stupid n over emo. So all i can do is pour it out here n hope i will b feeling better.
There is new girls in chat room n i can c him chatted n flirted happily away everyday while i bcome quieter n quieter. Once a while he will call out to me when he noticed im not talking, but dats all.
Day by day, c-ing him flirt away hurts me. Im left wif the feelings of not being needed anymore. Im left feeling lonely, sad, emo, neglected, left out n lost.
Last time, he will sometimes tell me he missed me when im not around. But nowadays... he never say anything sweet anymore.
Often, i tot of quitting... leave the virtual world. I often wondered, if i leave the virtual world n disappear frm ur life for sometimes, will u miss me?
Or truthfully, hoping dat wif me gone, u will realised how much u nid n miss me (every girl who is in tis kind of pain will stupidly tink like tis)
But i know he dun like some1 who hides when things gone sour n bad, dats y im still here braving my aching heart to c him flirts.
I never get emo b4 i started getting involved n pratically lived in the virtual world. I din even get emo-ed over my real life ex bfs n past relationships.
But, i often get emo-ed over those i cared bout in virtual.
How can i b so stupid? Every sensible frens said im stupid to b emo-ed over some1 virtual but i realli cant help it. The pain dat ache in my heart realli hurts...
oh miyami... if onli i can convert all my feelings to u, i know i wont b unhappy now. haiz... help me...
