Sunday, June 7, 2009
My Rainbow, My Angel, My Dreams
Sometimes i tink im crazy...
Sometimes i will suddenly bcome emo/sad for no reason.
Unfanthomable by myself n definately no1 will understand. Or maybe as my profile describe - "Governed by emotions more than reasons"
Actually im trying my best to control myself and yes, i know im using the wrong medium as control - alcohol...
Funcky n Patrick said wow... i can drink...
Actually i cant... but recently bcoz of so many things happening to me my emoness grew n i drink 1-2 tall glasses to stop tinking n go sleep. Dats y i bcome "Can Drink" =.="
And alcohol is like drugs... once i realised how much it helped, my mind always drift to alcohol when im stress or emo.
Sigh... after i finish tis Tall bottle of Gin im goin to stop.
Stop alcohol! >.< Let me emo... but stop alcohol! T.T
U r like the Rainbow of my life,
Beautiful n perfect to my eyes,
Peaceful n calming my souls when im troubled,
A Guardian Angel dat is wise in everything,
Always there when i nid u,
But!
U seems so near yet so far,
Always seems like i have u in my hands but it turn out to b illusions.
U r the dream dat i dreamt of every nite,
But a dream dat will never come true...
So now,
I have to stop relying on u,
I have to slowly n painfully distance my bleeding heart from u,
I have to let go of the rainbow n forget the dreams,
I have to give up my Guardian Angel
And
Let u remain a sweet memory in the deepest of my heart,
Even tho wat i realli wanna do is the opposite,
How i wish it's a dream dat will come true eventually...Ok, it's not a poem above there so it wont ryhmes... It's jz something i pour out frm my heart, the creativeness frm my mind LOL
Hahaha my fren said it's not bad coz it's frm my heart.
Of course lor brader~ It's Original! Authentic! LOL
Nitez every1 hahahaha
