Friday, June 19, 2009
The weak me
Friday again, time realli flies..
Ntg much to update here and i'd been writing bout my fren until every1 oso sienz le LOL
Alot of my close frens said im too emo over some1 else's probs, but it's true... somehow im over emo over wats happening to her.
Maybe bcoz i came from a broken family myself and already have the negative feelings about MEN. So when this happened to my fren, i let my emoness get the best of me. Kinda like im seeing wat happened to my mother when i c wat is happening to her.
Even tho it's diff for my mother, but she brought her daughter ran away frm her 1st husband is oso bcoz her husband was a womanizer. Even tho my mother was forced into marriage by her brother, im sure there is love for her husband since she have to face and sleep wif him everynite for few years until she gave birth to 2 childrens (my step sis n bro)
I can imagine how hurt she was when she found out her husaband was a womanizer jz like how my fren hurt.
But my mother is stronger or maybe bcoz her husband never care at all and din find her back when she ran away.
Anyway, my mother managed to bring up 4 kids alone. She is truly amazing...
Life was harder back then, my mother is uneducated (onli male siblings get to go to school), it's harder for her to find work than others. But she did it! She managed to raised all of us single handedly.
I wish im as strong as my mother. Even tho now i can say "divorce lar if my husband find others or if he dun love me. Wats the big deal?"
But i know, when it comes to reality. I might not be able to do it or face it.
As always, im a dreamer more than doer....
Dats y im overly emo and care bout my fren's case. Coz i know if im in her shoes i might not be able to handle the situation.
