Monday, August 17, 2009
long long blog
Since start working and moved out of my previous home. I realli lost contact wif most of my online frens, especially Ishu boss... even tho i miss every1, especially Ishu boss... but...wat to do... It's time i start being serious about my life or i'll end up being a pauper for the rest of my life and maybe end up sleeping on the street when im old n cant work coz nobody want LOL
Actually, am i dat ughly until so long cant ever get a decent loving bf? My frens, those who has met me... wats ur opinions? I'd like to hear dat >.<
Maybe i omit some kind of aura, for when i go out shopping center or eat alone, no1 dare to ever come get to know me, so i was thinking... maybe i omit the aura of "F off!" LOL or maybe the plain truth is, im too fat and ughly...
Before i met any of my online frens, we tend to chat on msn or phone. And at this point, i guess i omit the "sexual" aura, for they onli want to meet me for sex or even 1 night stand but, they'll be dissapointed to know that even tho im easy goin and open minded, im not a girl dat can have sex wif jz any1.
(Eh... seems like the words im using in my blogs lately oso isnt dat decent anymore >.<)
Another thing about me is, Im crazy... i always run away from those that wan to date me seriously and go after those dat not interested in me... Hahaha...
Or maybe i shud jz sit here and wait for a man to fall frm the sky LOL...
Or maybe it's my fate, blame it on the stars, it's always hard for a Sagittarius to have serious long term relationships...
Or maybe, im fated to be ALONE for the rest of my life...
Hahaha...
Erm... im goin to type a long long blog tonight lol to make up for all those days i din made entries and also to cover up few days or weeks ahead until i go CC again xD
Last 2 week was a close fren's bday... Went out wif him and his 2 childrens for movie and dinner (can consider is dinner ba) and we watched Ice Age 3 again (it reminds me of cloud n makes me miss him xD)
He's struggling to be a father and mother to both of his kids, and i can c that it's hard for him... he's not ready to be a sudden father yet and sometimes... he realli cant handle and be fair to them... Hope things will be better for him and work out.
My dear fren, anytime u nid my help... jz give me a call.
After the outing wif my dear fren and his kids, i went out wif my colleagues and we went to karaoke until 4am, slept at 4.30am to wake 8am the next morning and it's MONDAY zzz....
Since joining my new company, i went to karaoke more times than whole of my life put 2gether... LOL but i dun sing! sometimes i wonder, i go for wat sia? =.="
Maybe jz to eat the buffet, drink the alcohol or maybe i need frens so desperately im willing to go anywhr wif real frens.
Since i started meeting my online games frens, i jz keep on meeting other frens, like those frm my msn, chat rooms, etc and after all this i came to the conclusions that. Only online games frens is sincere (except Cloud n Jimmy, they r sincere and they r not frm online games)
The rest, they onli wan sex. ONS, Oral, Phone sex, all sorts that is related to sex zzz
Thank god, im not the naive, stupid gal i was years ago. Thank god im a grown woman who knows how to say NO and keep them at arms lenght. Except 1 dat is quite attractive... Hahaha
Ok, still keeping him at arms lenght... but Hope i wont crumble >.<
Last week, i went to met a gal whom i got to know thru PJNet forums. Maybe the impression or the way i chat mislead her. For i was late to meet her that night coz i went for dinner wif my colleagues and boss and when i reached Sunway (the place we agreed to meet). She's in a hotel so i went up to meet her.
When i reached, she opened up the room n i walked in to c 2 guys (dat looks like ahbeng and ahpek-not their age but how they looks like n how they carries themselves) and i saw her panties laying on the floor, her bra at a chair... Swt, i jz walked into a 3p party and realised i was invited for a 4p! =.=" and of course i took my leave, gracefully =P
Well.... frm the bottom of my heart, i might had stayed if they looks abit more erm... an dao... Kakakaka
And luckily, i dragged my di di wif me - Andy (silver88) which is far more 100% good looking and appealing than those 2 "ma lat lou" =.="
Frm those i met, havent met and observed... most that goes for ONS or random sex, dun care how their partner looks like as long as they have a pe*** or she have a pu***... i feels that is dam cheap... like lapsap tong
Not that i dun have carnal desire or urge but i cant bring myself to simply climb into bed wif jz any1 unless there is feelings involved.
Another thing i observed is, most of them is in relationships. Be it, married, wif gf/bf or engaged. They shud be sexual active wif their partner but y, do they still looks for sex outside of their relationships?
Maybe, they are addicted to the excitement of doin something they knows very well is wrong...
Wif this, i end my entry 2nite. Gud nitez and try to miss me abit ok? xD
